‘Butterflies in your stomach. Butterflies in your stomach.’ It’s such a cliche but it takes experiencing it to understand how true it really is. I take deep breaths and stare down at the salted caramel cookies my Dad bought especially for today. I realise that this is actually happening.
The gentle rocking of the boat isn’t making me feel any better, I keep glancing up the towpath, nervously watching, waiting. I expect to see them any minute. I don’t really know what they look like. All I know, (well, all you’re allowed to know) is that I am beingΒ filmed for a casting development project for a mainstream TV channel. A London production company is coming to film me and my life.
This has all happened so fast and, although I’m nervous, I feel an elated anticipation. Suddenly they’re here, carrying a huge camera and looking professional. This is it, Gracie…..this is it……
It all goes so amazingly, I enjoy every minute. Every minute spent giving my opinions on big modern life issues, being interviewed on challenging topics like politics, feminism, social media, materialism, relationships and social care. Every minute talking about my life and the things I’m passionate about, reading poetry and stories in a voice that seems more powerful now there’s someone here especially to hear it. Every minute spent being absolutely myself.
It was intense and my brain whirrs just thinking about it now. But I was in my element, I like a challenge. I like people who value the perspectives of young people on modern society. I loved thinking about the questions and carefully wording my replies. I didn’t find it easy, but I had the opportunity and I wanted to make the most of it.
All in all, I may be accepted to participate in this programme or I may not. I would love to be able to share my thoughts on life even further, but if not, I am just eternally grateful for this experience and I’m proud of myself for making it happen and getting this far.
Please leave me a message in the comments box below, I absolutely love to hear from you all. Thanks!Β
I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT FATHOM ANYTHING. ARE YOU GETTING FEATURED ON A MAINSTREAM TV CHANNEL?!!! ( jaw hitting the Floor)
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WOW! You’ve made my day! Yeah, well, I got down to the final few and may be chosen to be on this programme on a MAINSTREAM TV CHANNEL!!! I do really hope so. Thank you! Sorry that I can’t say more, hopefully I’ll be able to nearer to the time. ππππ
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Okayyyy…..Ohh myy Godd…Well all I can say is, ALL THE VERY BEST to thiss!!! Break a legg!!ππ And also, what is it about? A competition or an interview kinda thing?
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Thank you, my friend! Thank you so much. Ahhhh, I can’t tell you anything. A thousand apologies. Well, maybe I can say this: I applied, had an interview and the filming was the last step before they decide if I’m on the show. Right, I’m now keeping my mouth firmly shut.
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Ooh…that’s fine. I understand π hope you update us soon!
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Me too. Yeah, I will as soon as I can.
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OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH BREAK A LEG AND WE’RE CHEERING FOR YOU!!!
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OH MY GOODNESS OH MY GOODNESS, MAY! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!
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πππ Thanks!
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I guess we all get butterflies sometimes when we are excited about something or worried maybe.I always think it’s a natural thing and if it’s a worry butterflies it’s never as bad as you think. I know that when the film crew came it was all forgotten and you enjoyed the whole experience xxxxx
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GRACIE GRACIE GRACIE that is so amazing!!! I hope you get accepted, wow you’re already closer to changing the world!!!
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Thank you, Grace! Me too. That means the world to me.
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OH MY GOSH REALLY? This is awesome! What show?? I’d love to watch you once it’s out! But if you don’t want to say that’s absolutely fine!π AHHH it’s so cool! Good luck! Break a leg?πβ€
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YES!!! I’m so sorry that I can’t tell you anything except what I’ve already written! TV, as I’m sure you know, is shrouded in secrecy. Thank you so much! You’ve made me smile.
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It’s ok!! I really hope you do get the part, it would be amazingπ Aw I’m glad I made you smileππ
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That’s good. Aw, you’re so so kind!
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πππ Thank you!
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You are appearing on a show, is it? That is fantastic! xx
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Yeah, I haven’t been accepted for sure yet, but I have made it to the final few. Thank you!
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Well all the best for it. The experience is what counts xx
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Thank you so much! You’re so lovely. Yeah, I totally agree.
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GRACIE THAT SOUNDS AMAZINGLY INSANE. β€ I don't live in the UK but when your segment comes out I'd love to hear all about it and try to find a way to watch it!
xoxo Abigail Lennah
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YES, IT IS!!! Thank you so much! I’ll probably be able to give more info when the programme comes out.
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Wow!,that’s amazing.. I hope you’ll be accepted. I’m certain you will inspire a lot of people.. βΊ
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Wow! Thank you! That means a lot to me.
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You’re welcomeβΊπ
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Well done you!
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Thank you so much!
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Oh my goodness, Gracie, this is so amazing! Me, I can never imagine being in a TV show.
If I were you, I probably would have dragons breathing fire in my stomach. Waaaaay more destructive than butterflies.
I like it when people ask me questions about life. Life is such a simple and yet complicated thing. We are like a mere breath in the universe’s respiration, a single thread in its tapestry, and it’s funny how we let our egos climb so high in spite of knowing all that. Ah, well, humans are funny. It’s in their nature.
Guess that was not much related. π In any case, I’m so happy for you, Gracie!
I was also wondering if you’d like to send in an entry for InkCraft, a magazine I’m going to be hosting. You can find the details here: https://thewritingwritersblog.wordpress.com/magazine/ and you can enter here: https://thewritingwritersblog.wordpress.com/submit-your-work/
You can also send something you have written previously. I’d be pleased to feature your work in our magazine!
~Mukta~
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Mukta! THIS IS ONE OF THE BEST COMMENTS EVER! Thank you! You have absolutely made my day. Yup, come to think of it, there were probably quite a few dragons in there! I love your descriptive illustration, it was so beautiful. I am still savouring the words.
And yes, of course! I’d love to write something! I’ll check it out soon as I can. Thanks again, my friend. You’re the best! Xxx
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XD I’m so glad it meant something to you.
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It really did, Mukta! Thanks so much! πππ I’m checking out that thing now…..!
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Your pieces were beautiful! Thank you for entering. π
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Thank you so so so much! It’s a pleasure. I think your magazine is an incredible idea. I can’t wait. When will it be out?
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Perhaps in July. π
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Cool! I’m so excited!
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OMG how exciting is this?!? I’m cheering for you girl, hope to see you become a TV star!! Good luck!ππ
Keep up with the good work and have an awesome day!
xx, Kris
https://dreamingofpink.wordpress.com
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Haha! Thank you! This has made my day!
You too! Thanks again.
Gracie
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