I believe in keeping things real here and so I’m going to say this – I’m leaving to drive round the UK coast in a tiny campervan living on only a tenner a day tomorrow and I’m kinda afraid. Don’t get me wrong, I’m also really, really excited. It’s gonna be an awesome experience and I hope I get the chance to make a difference in the lives of others, but there’s also something inside me that’s a bit scared…
I’m really not afraid of many things, it’s just that life can be overwhelming – especially when you feel things as deeply as I do and when everything just matters so much.
I think that’s probably the thing – I care about this SO much and I just want it work out. I guess I just have to put all of myself into this and make it work…
…. but, when I think about it, I realise that I also care about my friends and I care about home and I care about a boy that hasn’t spoken to me in weeks (story for another day). It’s just a bit confusing.
This challenge is my future. It’s my pathway to my dream of sailing and working with young people. It’s my chance to truly make a difference and inspire others to do the same and that far outweighs the anxieties of leaving and stepping outside my comfort zone. I’ve been going on about actively doing something all my life and this is my moment. I see the need for change and I can’t let anything hold me back from creating that.
In my heart, I’m a free spirit, a wanderer, I’m a rebel and a revolutionary, but I’m also a worrier and I know that I have to push through that.
Tomorrow, everything will change. I won’t be able to talk to my friends when I need them most because I’ll be busy meeting new people, I won’t be able to write my heart out and then post it on here because I’ll be focused on posting things chon our challenge social media, I won’t be able to scroll through Pinterest for inspiration and comfort because I’ll be taking it from the world around me, I won’t be able to switch my music on when I’m feeling down or even when I just want to dance simply because I’m not gonna have wifi 😂 And – even though that scares me a little – I think its a good thing.
Life’s not easy guys, not for any of us. There’s feelings and friendships and relationships and society and who even knew how complicated all that stuff gets?! I’ve been overwhelmed by it all recently and even though this challenge is HUGE and NEW and kinda scary, it’s also an escape from all that and I’m really looking forward to focusing my energy on something else, something truly important.
So….my message to you guys….
Don’t EVER give up.
It’s clichè, but you can do this. I promise you are strong enough.
Turn your music up loud, tie your hair up or let it down – whichever feels right.
Care about things enough to act on them, but try not to care so much that you end up hurting.
Step out of your comfort zone, challenge yourself – you might become someone even more amazing!
Build each other up, check on your friends, be honest, be there for people, ask for advice, be kind to strangers.
It’s okay to be broken, but don’t stay that way.
Don’t be afraid to stand up for what you believe in and do things differently. If I can, so can you 💙
Imma leave you with a quote from My Chemical Romance – yes, it’s emo, but no, it’s not dark and yes, it is amazing and beautiful and you should listen to more of it.
Will never take my heart
You can try
You’ll never break me
Or say I’m sorry
I’m gonna show my scar
Give a cheer
For all the broken
Because it’s who we are
I feel like this post was a mess, but there you go 😂 I won’t be posting on this blog much (maybe on the odd occasion….idk yet), but you know if you ever, ever, ever are having a tough time or want someone to talk to, you can ALWAYS email me through my contact page and I’ll do my absolute best to get back to you.
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I’ll miss you all, but it’s only bye for now 💙💙